The Cynical Fishy

The Unread Post

2009-04-01T18:59:00.001+03:00

Hello my currently none existent readers. I know no one visits blog anymore, but if anyone reads this then hello :D I just needed to write some of my thoughts down.
So life constantly smacks me, whether it’s smack in the face which just crushes me or a smack of happiness. I feel as if life can’t be planned. Well, let me rephrase, my life can’t be planned. I can plan short term things, like a trip to the mall, a vacation with juju or something, but major things in my life, I cant plan. I feel as if most other ppl have their lives going according to plan, or atleast close to the outline of their plan, whether they’re married, studying, working or all 3. You know, they’d say something like I’m gonna do my masters after I graduate and I plan on getting married, and oh well they do. Mashallah, im happy for them, I hope they get what they want from life. But then I take a look at my life and well life just happens to me, apparently I cant plan it. At one point I planned to do my masters, after much confusion, I didn’t, main reason is because I got a job. I thought id have a certain kind of job, but I didn’t, it was crappy. I thought I’d be married by now or atleast be interested in someone decent, but I’m not. Alhamdulilah so far its all turned out to be for the best. I realized that it’s a good thing I didn’t go do my masters degree cuz I wouldn’t have liked it and I may not have found a job when I graduated. I hated my previous job and I was gonna try my best and complain to move somewhere else and I was regretting accepting my job and not doing my masters, but then alhamdulilah I got transferred and I’m happier where I am now.
Anyways, maybe I shouldn’t be complaining because after a lot of confusion, anger and frustration, life eventually picks something for me which is atleast mediocre, and not bad. But I’d like think I could plan something. I'd like to think that the effort and thought I put into things would actually help me. And being the type of person that I am, I’m very well organized and like having things planned out. So u can imagine the frustration I’m going through when I realize I cant plan anything in my life 
I guess that’s it for writing my thoughts down. Thank you invisible people for allowing me to share my feelings.

buy one get one free: 2 posts in 1

2007-08-22T15:41:00.000+03:00

Hello hello hello blog ppl :D
I have 2 things to blog about. Taqos tag and something else… lets see if I can fit both into one post… ok taqos tag, 8 things u don’t know about me (juju not included :l )
*pauses to sing: your love alone is not enough, not enough, not enough, when times get tough, they get tough, they get tough…..*
1) when I sit around the house, my feet are usually cold if you touch them, even if the weather is normal. But apparently when I when I wear shoes my feet sweat :S like if I travel I have to make sure I bring 2 or 3 shoes to alternate between. Cuz if I wear the same shoe (not sandal) for a few days in row without changing them I get stinky feet 8< anyways apparently my feet experience extremes, either frozen or hot and sweaty.
2)i have a weakness for singers/rockers. Id love to have one 8< the whole singing and writing songs thing makes them attractive.
3) I cried when I used the bathroom in mina when I did 7ajj like 7 yrs ago. It was gross. The lights were burnt, so u couldn’t see well, it was a 7amam 3arabi, theres a shower dripping on ur head, dirty tissues and diapers soakin on the floor, something that looked like poop smeared on the wall and water splashing on ur legs from the stalls around yours.
4) for some reason I always thought id be married by now. im fine with it now, but when I was younger I thought id be married around 19-21.
5) the concept of dating doesn’t click with me. I think it’s a pointless middle stage which in most cases hurts either one or both of the parties involved. Im more into the be friends and if u realize u really like each other get engaged and get married.
6) I love chocolate. I think I need a daily dose
7) I think the world is retarded
8) I dream a lot. But nothing interesting, its either stupid stuff or crappy annoying stuff. Rarely ever get a good dream

Now onto part 2 of my post:
let me keep this breifish… I was in salalah last week. Mashallah pretty place. Anyways, I was eating dinner at the hotel (buffet) and I went to get desert. While I was there, some girls came.
girl: where are u from?
Me: Saudi
Girl: ha ha ha (sarcastic laugh) your saudi
Me: what?
Girl: im Saudi (still keeping up the rudeness).. where in Saudi?
Me: shargiya
Girl: im from there too. Keef enti s3oodiya o ana s3oodiya?
Me: *ignores*
Girl: enti bayda
A bit of other lil crap for 30 secs that I cant remember.
Me: ma tabghi itsadgeeni, latsadgeeni. Bas ana ma akthib.
Girl: bla bla bla…… tayeb laish lahjatik kitha
Me: *walks away* I was raised abroad

99% of the conversation was in Arabic. And she was just rude thru out it all, from start to end. And she was just rude thru out it all, from start to end. I don’t see what her problem is, I just said s3oodiya… nothing else and she already started to criticize me and say im not Saudi :| she was a complete piss off… my god, ive never seen anyone as retarded and rude as her for no reason. Anyways, I don’t see why she should think im lying :l I honestly think ppl who lie about where there from are idiots. Anyways, I don’t see why she judged me. There are ppl who r 100% Saudi and theyre just as white as me. Im not 100% Saudi, ive got all kinds of bloods in me (Bahraini, Syrian, Lebanese, Palestinian, morrocan). But my origins are still Saudi, so therefore I am Saudi. Not that being Saudi is the best thing ever, but id be proud of my heritage no matter where im from, I wouldn’t lie about it. But apparently the world is sick and ppl just lie and ppl have issues (please refer to point #7 mentioned above). I cant stand it when ppl question me, are u sure ur Saudi? Yes ofcourse im sure, u idiot, I have no reason to lie :l if u want my whole family history id be happy to tell it to you but either way my answer wont change…
anyways, I think this post is long enough :$ hehe
bubyes

the confused post

2007-07-14T13:15:00.000+03:00

Aloha blog ppl :D
Yes I know ive been away for quite some time. I haven’t really had anything worth blogging about. Don’t get all excited, I don’t really have anything worth blogging about now either but im bored and I had some stuff on my mind so I decided to write a post. Well I was sitting here at my desk thinking of these sisters I used to know back in junior high and high school. Not sure why they popped into my head, I think they were in my dream or something last night. Anyways, I came to thinking about all my friends and where they are and how they’ve grown up etc.
I feel as if most them are ahead of me in life. Don’t get me wrong, im not jealous or anything, mashallah 3alaihum. Its just that I don’t have anything to say, my life is kinda at a stand still, im not really going anywhere. Who knows, maybe they look at me and think the same. Anyways, ive decided to list all the old friends I can think of and state what theyre doing right now.
Alia: engaged and working in the UK.
Nesiba: supposedly married, her wedding was supposed to be a week or 2 ago. Should be on her way back to the states.
Hana: who knows, lost touch with her a couple of yrs ago. She was a fun person
Amenah: married with a baby
Fatima: maybe still studying
May: in jam3a (out of all ppl on this list Im the most in touch with her these days)
Sabira: doing her masters with a toddler
Summaya: I heard she was engaged and working
Umm, sorry I think ill stop the list here, cuz I can just keep listing ppl and that would be pointless and boring, loool. I think I feel as if most ppl grew up and matured, not that im an immature bum. But the whole idea of having a job and getting married makes me think hmm, theyre adults now, would we have anything left in common. I know ive got a job so according to what I just said I would be mature and grown up, but maybe I don’t feel that way cuz I don’t like my job and I don’t think im learning much from it. i guess the only way id really be able to tell if they really are different than me is to hang out with them but that wont be happening cuz we re all pretty much in different countries. I hope I don’t become boring when I grow up (lool, that sounds amusing, I mean when I get a decent job and get married). I think married ppl tend to be boring, I think juju would know what im talking about. U kinda lose common ground with them and u don’t have anything to talk about and what they talk about isn’t too interesting. I have so many thoughts running thru my head right now, and I keep typing and erasing  so lets just leave this post as it is. If u have no idea what im talking about, its ok *hug* I wasn’t quite sure what point I was trying to reach. I was thinking out loud and along the way my views changed and I began to see things differently :D
Loool, this post is amusing me.
Anyways, to all my old friends (my real friends, not ppl I used to know who were evil  hehe), I know u wont read this. But I love u and uve made my life amusing, thank u.
Ok, ill leave now. After reading this post you should now understand why ive stopped posting, hehe.
bubyes

baking myself a man

2007-05-06T17:46:00.000+03:00

Hello blog ppl
I was just discussing with juju about how id like to paint a man at a ceramic painting store and then when he comes out of the oven he’ll be life size. But juju pointed out that at the store id only be able to paint him. So she suggested a brilliant idea :o she said why don’t I bake a man. I was like oooh, ill make him from cakes and muffins :D
So what will I put in my man cake….
Flour and eggs: theyll be his base and make him dependable and reliable and keep him together.
Sugar: so he can be sweet
Espresso beans: so he can be strong (jujus suggestion)
Chocolate: for sexiness (jujus suggestion again)
Chocolate chips: ill throw some in, so that he would have some sweet surprises.
Nuts: to make him smart
A pinch of Cinnamon: to give him some spice and make him a bit exotic
Sour cream: to make him light and fluffy and I guess that would mean hes gentle (for those of u who don’t bake, yes u can put sour cream in cakes and it doesn’t taste funky)
Last but not least, I’ll ice/frost him and decorate him, thatll make him fun. And ill throw a bunch mini candies (such as mini m&ms) on top to give him a sense of humor.
Well that’s all I can think of for now. ill be sure to add more ingredients later on if I think its required :D
I shall leave u now so i can continue to dream of my imaginary, currently non existent man 8<
bubyes ppl

fancy hospital serves tomatoes in the bathroom

2007-04-02T15:56:00.000+03:00

aloha to the very small group of ppl who read my blog :D

like usual, i have a bunch of random things to talk about. i just finished eating a bowl of tomatoes. mmm, yummy. im not much of a tomato person, i usually avoid the ones in my salad. but these tomatoes r different. theyre cherry tomatoes from my dads yard/garden. and well i like cherry tomatoes, in general baby vegetables amuse me, loool (i just imagined a response juju might have to that).

next, saad hospital. this hospital amazes me. mashallah its so fancy. i think its too fancy for a
hospital. but anyways, for those of u havent seen the hospital ill tell u a lil bit about it. the lobby/ entrance looks like a hotel lobby, theres a crystal chandelier on the stairs and a seating area with a high ceiling, the ceiling kind of has this jungle hut theme to it. ya3ni wood and plants. seriously, it looks nothing like a hospital, ya3ni i wouldnt mind sitting there for a cup of coffee. the doors to the examination rooms arent plane doors, theyve got wood carvings on them. anyways, by now u should get the point about how fancy this hospital is mashallah. personally id prefer a hospital that looked more hospital like, u know, nice sparkly clean and modern, but simple. so for u ppl who havent seen the hospital, if ur ever in the area i suggest u take a peak :D hehe

theres this bathroom in aramco which also amuses me. above the toilet in each stall, there are 3 mini signs, one is about hanging up the hose, the other is about not standing on the toilet and the third is about flushin the toilet. well now theyve added a couple of more signs. on the outside and the inside of each bathroom stalls door, there are 2 sheets of paper taped up. one in arabic and one in english about flushing the toilet and keeping it clean. too many signs, loool. i wonder, if uve got a dirty person who gets the bathroom dirty or doesnt flush, will a sign actually get them to keep the bathroom clean. and if so, whats wrong with those ppl, they need a freakin sign to understand that they should keep the place clean :l ya3ni if theres no sign, that means they can dirty the place :l akh, ppl r retarded, but whats new.

anyways, i was listening to the radio yesterday and this oldish song came on (relative to the yrs ive been alive). aaahhh, the good old days. anyways, the song was 'girl on tv' by 'LFO (lite funky ones)' looool, cute name. ill sing a bit for u... lalalala (me warming up :D hehe) wish for u on a falling star, wondering where u r, do i ever cross ur mind in the warm sunshine, shes from the city of angels, like betty davis, james dean and gable, never know what she means to me, i fell for the girl thats on tv......

last but not least, i am now 23, so therefore i am more mature, loool. that was amusing to say, as if having my bday suddenly changes me completely :o

yallah ill be on my way now ppl

take care

bubyes

why settle for nescafe with noisy neighbors when u can have starbucks

2007-03-15T00:12:00.000+03:00

hello hello :D
yes, i know i havent posted in quite some time. well the time has come for me to post. so here it is.
first up, my neighbors r annoying :l theyre noisy. who the hell moves furniture after 10 pm on a weekday ? :l they have lil kids who stay up late. makes me wonder how can ppl let their kids stay up that late :l anyways, theyre over all noisy and i can hear all their crap in my room.
secondly, lately ive been wondering if i should settle for less, in things such as life and marriage. i wonder alot about if ill get what i want in life. should i accept something thats less than what i really want and if i need to settle for less, how much less? ill give u guys an example. if some guy comes and proposes, he seems fine and all, maybe even good, but he expects me to cover my face. should i? please no one answer that question, im not asking u guys, i was just giving u an example (im serious, its just my opinion and im not trying to offend or argue with anyone) u see, im a firm believer in being true urself and those close to u by not just changing who u are bas kitha to please someone. aslong as ur not mean and u dont hurt or harm ppl in anyway, i dont think anyone has the right to change u. not that im not willing to compromise, cuz i am, as long as the other person does so too, in equal amounts. cuz thats only fair. going back to my example of face covering just cuz my husband wants me to. well i wouldnt want to. cuz alhamdulilah i think i dress decently, i cover my hair and all, and i dont believe that the face is a 3awra and i dont believe in covering my face just for tradition. anyways, back to the point, should i accept a guy who wants me to cover my face, or a guy who doesnt want me to work or anything else. personally, i wouldnt want to marry someone with the intention of changing him. i think u should accept the person for who they are, or just move along. but i dont like the whole idea of "get a wife and mould her" :S

anyways last but not least, on a lighter note, i got a drink from starbux today and the guy at cashier remembers me (even though i hadnt been there in awhile) he was very friendly, he asked me how i was, how life is etc etc. he asked me if i wanted whipped cream on top, since he had already started putting it, i said yeah ok, wut the hell. hes like "u sure? u wont go telling ppl some african guy in starbux is making me a big mama?" (for those of u who didnt get it, he basically meant 'ur not gonna complain about gaining weight and becoming fat from my drink'). starbux has friendly employees. i miss jenny, she knew my usual order and she was friendly mashallah.

thats it for now.

bubyes blog ppl :D

the taqo tagged me

2007-02-09T22:37:00.000+03:00

ok, let me think of 5 things that u guys dont know about me. hmmmm
1)im currently and usually wearing the same earings. i got these earings back in 6th grade, as everyday earrings. something i can sleep and shower with. but apparently they were too big to wear to skool (my skool was very very strict with stuff like this). so i only wore them during vacations and maybe on the weekend. after i left that skool they became my everyday earings. i rarely take them off, for special occasions i change my earrings, or if my earhole is irritated i take them off. other than that im always wearing them. i have a friend whos gotten sick of them :D but i love them
2)the nail on my little toes arent flat, theyre bent. so cutting them is annoying.
3)i hear a click in my ears when i swallow my saliva. it all started like 6 yrs ago after i got a really bad ear infection. some ENT doctor told me the click happens in everyones ears but theycant hear it. but my ears have become extra sensitive and thats why i can hear it.
4)when i was little i always thought my best friend kareem would bury me when i died, and id bury him when he died.
5)i used to be a dallas cowboys fan. back in the troy aikman and emmitt smith days :D
i guess thats gbood enuf. bubyes blog ppl 8<

2007-02-02T20:43:00.000+03:00

hello ppl,
*Lay a whisper on my pillow, leave the winter on the ground. I wake up lonely, theres air of silence in the bedroom and all around. Touch me now, I close my eyes and dream away..... It must have been love but it's over now. It must have been good but I lost it somehow. *
well im drinking my shai maghrabi and thinking of wut to blog about. (foof, want some?:P ) anyways, a few random things. first up, i just remembered using 7amam 3arabi in malaysia. oh my god it was horrible :l alhamdulilah. i hadnt used 7amam 3arabi since 7ajj back in 2000. and back then i was wearing dresses and a shibshib when id use the bathroom, so not much to worry about. but im malaysia i was wearing jeans and i didnt know where to roll them up too etc :( it was stressful, but i really needed to use the bathroom.
the other day i went out with a fellow blogger and friend manx. we ate at 'applepees/abblebees'. it was amusing. we remembered the old days and some of the stuff we did eg: leave chocolate on khalids car, loool. dont ask why we did it, we just did, it was a random thing to do. we also remembered some guy in aramco named hani who freaked us out cuz he kept driving past us on a lil motorbike and shouting out his number :l (he also had a crazy look in his eyes). while at applebees, i attacked a napkin and killed it (pictured below). manx sat there wiping the table with her napkin, dont get the impression that the table was dirty, it was clean, but i guess she just likes wiping random things, maybe she was trying to polish it. hmm who knows, hehe :D what else.... i trimmed my hair on tuesday afternoon. lady who usually does my hair is imsafra for a few months, so someone else did it for me this time. the lighting in the salon reminds me of the lighting in 'red earth' in dubai. it sux. it makes u look pale and yucky. i remember walking into red earth with my friends, id avoid the mirrors cuz theyre depressing. ur face looks yellow and sick, any hair on ur face shows, even if u just removed ur mustache, the mirror and the lighting will still manage to make some hairs magically appear. disgusting. just digusting.
i was looking for something in particular but i couldnt find it... anyways, i dedicate this post to one hell of a sweet and amusing guy who died 2 years from yesterday. allah yir7amak mohammed. im sorry, i was going to share something with u guys, but its just too personal and special to be placed on my blog.

tandasing all over dubai and malaysia

2007-01-21T12:32:00.000+03:00

Hello blog world :D
With a lil help from zeez the muffin, ive started writing this post.
Well im back. From where u say? :o
Well I went to dubai to attend my cousins wedding. Wedding was good alhamdulilah. Some parts annoying but some parts cute and fun (eg: river dancing with the family :D) im considering becoming a professional river dancer, hehe.
Anyways, while in in dubai I met up with cookie for dinner and shooting :D yes yes, I know, as if I wasn’t violent enuf already, now I know how to use a shot gun :D
After dubai, I went to Malaysia with the one and only jaja. It was fun alhamdulilah. First thing I must say about Malaysia is: NEVER EVER GO TO KOTA BHARU AND SOUG SITI KHADIJA. U see, if u read the Malaysia tourism website it makes kota bharu (aka kofta imbahara) sound very interesting. But its not :l so don’t go there. Soug siti khadija just makes u want to vomit and and wash urself from top to bottom with Clorox. Theyres raw chicken sitting around everywhere and its dripping :l smells nasty :l anyways, as we were wondering thru the streets of kota bharu, we stopped for a moment to look at our map. Next thing we know, some coolish looking guy (probably the coolest guy in the whole city) walks up to us, stops and starts staring at the map with us, I look up at him, he looks up at me, he smiles, then I smile, then he walks away. Loooooool. Don’t ask.
During our trip, we held/fed all kinds of animals. Monkeys, snakes, lizards, elephants, quails, deer, bears, and ostriches. It was pretty interesting. Especially the monkeys, theyre adorable mashallah. There was a mama monkey holding her baby, eating some bread I gave her and holding on to my pants for a few mins (making sure I don’t escape) loool.
We were also attacked by animals :l butterflies :l they attacked us :( one tried flying into my eye and some others kept trying to attack juju 8<
Hmm wut else…..
Well, I guess ill mention one last thing. When me and juju were staring at our reservation paper, we noticed it said something about “birthday cake”on it. And we were like huh :l anyways, a lil b4 our plane landed in Malaysia, a flight attendant handed us a box with a lil birthday cake in it :D why? Well we don’t know why :D but it was amusing.

a pictures worth a thousand words

2006-12-09T23:16:00.000+03:00

this post is short and to the point. 3zayezs new nick name is muffin. now tell me, can anyone guess whos in the pic? :D

attacked by a bottle of conditioner while playing tag with BJ

2006-11-27T17:09:00.000+03:00

they say the devils water, it aint so sweet, u don’t have drink right now, but u can dip ur feet, every once in a while…….
I like the song, so if I sang it b4, well too bad, I’m singing it again :D
Anyways, hello blog ppl,
Many random things to talk about today….
First up, when I was showering today I got attacked by my conditioner bottle. I guess it had some hidden anger towards me and it just let it out. u see, I was squeezing out some conditioner into my hand and then the bottle jumped outta my hand and hit me in the face :l *dan dan dan danßsuspense music*
Next thing, well I’ve been a bit scared lately. U know fear of the unknown. I’m at a point in my life where I have nothing planned. And well for those of u who don’t know me, I need to have things planned out :l ya3ni I sit there wondering where will I work and as what. Who I’ll eventually marry and how. All that stuff and so much more. For the past 22 yrs of my life things have pretty much already been preplanned. I’d go to preschool and kindergarten, then I’d go to school for 12 yrs and then top it off with a bachelors degree. And now I sit here not knowing where to go or what to do. And im not the type who likes sitting there in the dark waiting for surprises :l I like knowing stuff. It sounds simple here, but again, if u know me, then you’ll understand all the other things mixed up in this and how it’s a lot more complicated.
Up next, I will tell u about bird poop and UPM. Don’t worry they’re 2 different topics :$
About the poop. I don’t like birds and their poop :l they poop when they’re flying and sitting, and it lands on stuff it shouldn’t be on. Like park benches, cars, and people’s heads and other body parts. And it’s just annoying.
As for UPM. I have a love for UPM. Why, I’m not sure. Id love to study or teach there. Or even open a bakery there :D hehe. I think they should make an exception for me and juju and allow us to study and work there 8< who knows maybe someday :^) and maybe when its time they’ll name a building after us :D woooo
Last but not least, I was tagged by bj to make the book cover. She pretty much tagged everyone. So I don’t know who to tag. But ill tag mysti and 3zayez. Sorry I’m too lazy to go search for the link ur supposed to go to right now. so if u go to bj’s blog and from there go to the blog of the person who tagged her, ull find the link there :D

no sushi on my boogers list or at the bloggers meeting

2006-11-13T15:04:00.000+03:00

aloha ppl :D to start off, i ate sushi for the second time last week, and i still think it sux :l so khalas its official, i do not like sushi. for all u ppl who argued with about how ill like sushi (these ppl dont even read my blog :$ hehe) go bite urselves :l i dont like it and probably never will.

next up, i made a blogroll thingy :D (my boogers list) woohooo. the reason i made one isnt so that others can see what blogs i read but so that when i delete my cookies and temporary internet files i dont have to sit there trying to remember other ppls links :D this way i can just come to my blog and clink on them :D anyways, if i forgot anyone or anyone wants to be added, i appologise in advance for forgetting u and just tell me to add u and ill add u (im being friendly :$ hehe, but seriously, tell me to add u)
last but not least, im having a bloggers meeting in khobar. u see u riyadh bloggers ur not the only ones who can have bloggers meetings :l u hear that? :l i will be having my meeting alone, theres no need for anyone else, as long one blogger is there (which is me), it will officially be a shargiya bloggers meeting, im not sure wut time or location the meeting will be held at. maybe ill just do it in my room in 10 mins and maybe ill serve myself gummy bears, hmmm. if anyone has any suggestions please free to make them.
anyways, i shall be on my way now.
bubyes ppl

ive been tagged to draw my pretty lil self :$

2006-11-05T01:01:00.000+03:00

hello :D
i was tagged by 3zayez and mystified chick. since i knew how much everyone was dying to see how i look, i worked on my pic as fast as could as to not dissapoint my fans.

the picture is pretty much self-explanatory. for the men out there, this will probably be ur only chance to ever see me without a 7ijab on, so u better get a good look :D and about the forks, well i dont expect many ppl to understand it, hell, i only expect like one person to get it :D
i shall be on my way now, i leave u with my pic
take care bloggers
whoops, just remembered i need to tag ppl, ok i tag foof, ren, rima and ahmed. i tag anyone else who wants to do it kaman.
bubyes

watching movies while showering in my puffy dress

2006-10-29T16:43:00.000+03:00

Hello few loyal ppl who read my blog :D
Well first off inshallah today I can have a happy shower again :D oh how I missed taking decent showers. U see, the water pump in our house had issues and decided to break down the day b4 3eed and u know how no one is open or works during 3eed :l anyways for the past week ive had to shower with very low water pressure and its not fun especially when washing ur hair :l no fun at all I tell u :l today our water pump got changed so inshallah all will go well and I don’t need to beg to use other ppls showers :P
Hmm wut else, wut else, my 3eed was ok, not as fun as previous 3eeds cuz my uncle isn’t in the country, so our yearly 3eed plans had to change. I had lunch at my aunts place and I made a discovery :o cat vomit looks like gravy. One of her cats vomited and it sat there sniffing it, I looked at the floor and im like hmm, wut is that, gravy or marag? When I told my aunt someone spilt marag on the floor shes like that’s not marag, its cat vomit :D
Roseanne is on tv now and I don’t like show……
Hmmmm….. oh saw a movie this weekend, ‘the departed', its interesting and worth watching. But warning, don’t watch it with any of ur parents :S alot of dirty swearing, u know the whole swearing using sexual terms…. Not very comfy watching it with a parent. After watching the movie I thought hmm, matt damon isn’t cute, but yet a bunch of girls think hes cute and the same thing about ben Affleck (but ben looks slightly better). Anyways I think as long as u clean up some guy and dress him up in a suit and make him famous, girls would go crazy over him, even though if he was an ordinary guy on the street most girls wouldn’t look twice at him.
Last but not least, I hate tryin to match fancy/formal things :l one of my cousins is getting married soon (inshallah) and I have a dress to wear to the wedding. Only problem is, the wedding is mixed and my dress is strapless, so I have been looking for some kinda short jacket to wear on top but I haven’t been able to find one, so if I don’t find one within the next week, im gonna have to go buy fabric and get the jacket sewn for me, in other words lazim afasil. I have never fasalt anything and I don’t feel like starting now, I like getting my stuff ready made. I think fasiling is such a drag. Anyways once I fasil my jacket, I have to match a 7ijab, a333333!
Anyways enough for now
Want me to sing for u guys? :$
I know u do, let me think of wut to sing b4 I leave :D

All the leaves are brown and the sky is gray
Ive been for a walk on a winters day
Id be safe and warm if I was in L.A.
California dreamin on such a winters day

ive been tagged even though i wasnt playing...i should go play kick ball

2006-10-12T15:12:00.000+03:00

Last birthday? im sorry this question is stupid, unless u guys wanna know so that u can buy me gifts then i wont tell u :
Last meal? i ate food from some place called moghul around 1 am. it was like kashmiri or paki food
Last time you cried? i dont remember, probably a few days ago, cant keep track of everytime i cry
Last career? i taught economic help sessions :D i even got a boyfriend that i didnt i want in the process. but he finally got the point. he scared me :( a33333
Last website visited? beetle juices blog
Last person you spoke to? my mama, she was asking me if i wanted anything from 7ala place other than the 2atayif dough
Last song you listened to? well i listened to part of sum 41: in too deep last night. it was on tv
Last book you read? im not a reading a person but the last book i read and finished was either 'the notebook'(which i couldnt stand) or purple hibiscus :D... i think the note book was the last one:s
Last TV show watched? im currently watching malcom in the middle, so it will be the last show i watched by the time i post this
Last person you IM’d? juju :D (i think she has to be mentioned in everyone of my posts 8< )
Last word you said? is this a serious question : who makes up these funky tags :

lil fishy seeking to be caught by handsome.......

2006-10-07T03:08:00.000+03:00

female fishy:
165 cm
medium build
dark brown eyes
moderately religious
open minded
mu7ajaba
extremely sexy and smart (mashallah, spit on me ppl)
size 8.5 US shoe size
likes scrunchies
easily amused, usually amused by herself
easily dissatified, always by other ppl or things
does not like mul7aqiya in dubai
has adorable friends who amuse her
looks angry or depressed when not communicating with ppl
likes planning alot :D (oh its 930, time to blow my nose)
sometimes drools on herself (i find it difficult to control my saliva flow sometimes, looool)

is seeking:
a male
between 175 and 188 cm tall
medium build, im not into petite men, i dont want someone i can sit on and break :l
does not wear tring : l
knows how to dress decently
clean and knows how to clean
knows how to cook (wouldnt mind a chef *drooly face* but he atleast has to know how to cook a few things)
must speak fluent english and arabic. i dont like english spoken with an arabic accent it somewhat annoys me
moderately religious
open minded: that does not mean he drinks and parties :l if u call that open minded then u need help
does not listen to crappy music. im sorry but i cant stand r&b and rap and that kinda stuff
must not like 5o cent
not hairy, on the amla6 side ( i dont mean filipino amla6 :l i mean amla6 relative to arabs)
must not be spoiled and live off his parents
aged 22 to 25 ( we can make exceptions for men who meet all requirements except for age, but not above 32. i had to put an age limit cuz i know old men find me attarctive :P)
must not wear bling bling : l
must have good sense of humor. we must amuse eachother
must have eye brows, not 0, not 1, and not more than 2
must not pluck any part of eyebrows
must like baked goods (liking the stuff i bake is enuf)
must not be a nerd
must not be in the cool group (cuz im not used to cool ppl, hehe)
must not wear pink or yellow
must wear socks with shoes (i dont know how ppl can wear shoes with no sox, dont their feet and shoes stink :l anyways i dont like the way it looks)
must not like choosing stupid chat names which show his sensitivity (eg:
al3ashig alwalhan, al7assas)
must not be overly poetic (im poetic enough eg: "asabi3ahoo kal bala7, wa ibtisamatahoo mithil al hilal fee nusf ilshahr.....)
must not be overly jealous.... i shall keep my guy friends :l..... and also must not have any urge to control me
must let me cry at wutever movie i want, even if its fantastic four
must understand my independence and my amusement by stupid simple things
must accept it when i just break down laughing and it continues for over 10 mins just from my mere ability to amuse myself
must not expect me to giggle and go all shy in his presence, or to molest him in public (eg: like the gross starbux couple :l)

if interested please contact me for an application form. once the application form is received we will review it and if we approve of your credentials we will invite u for a preliminary interview. we will contact u within a period of 3 to 4 weeks to inform u about the status of ur application. if ur last name happens to be Berbic and ur interested in applying (which im sure u are :$) u will be exempted from filling an application form and the preliminary interview and u will automatically move to the final stages of the interviewing process.
costs/payment for catching fishy is negotiable.
have a nice day

if u like this post u can thank juju, if u dont, u can complain to her. like usual she motivated me *shy face*
goodbye blog ppl

planes can get u sick but atleast they have cute guys

2006-09-25T03:26:00.000+03:00

hello ppl of the blog universe
no radio but i had a song stuck in my head today :D so ill sing for you
"hard to say wut it is i see in you, wonder if ill always be with you, words cant say and i cant do, enough to prove, its all for you" its an old song, but i remembered it today....
hmmm, so wut to talk about. first off, i wasnt gonna write this post cuz lately ive been in a secretive mood. u know i dont feel like sharing much with ppl, i wanna keep all my stuff private (with the exception of like 2 or 3 ppl who i tell stuff too). anyways, juju asked me to write a post the other day, so im writing it now thanx to juju :D (yeah i know im too into thank u speeches these days)
anyways, i was away in morocco for about 10 days. went with my mama. it was an interesting trip. i think the thing i gained most from the trip was trying their food. ya3ni i saw some sights and all but id have to say i had alot of traditional food. i had pastilla, tagine, couscous, braiwaat and the list goes on.........
we met a bunch of nice ppl on our trip alhamdulilah. a french lady who sells cranes, some americans vacationing and a bunch of morrocans. it wasnt a very active trip but alhamdulilah all in all it was good. shopping in the aswaag was a pain in the ass cuz you have sit there kasiring like crazy and if ur 5aliji they think u poop out money and even if ur shami they still rip u off :
anyways i was sick for the first 3 days of the trip, so that sucked, especially the 2nd day, i was just horrible. hmm, wut else. oh yeah on the plane trip from tangier to casa blanca there was this cutish guy. he was slim and tall, he was tanned, had brown hair which had just enough waviness to it. his ear was peirced and he wore glasses (mashallah 3alaih) anyways i thought he was spanish cuz tangeir has alot of spaniards, but he spoke arabic at one point and i was like :o anyways he amused me, must find a guy like him :D
im not sure wut else to write about. im chatting with someone and theyre keeping me distracted :D so i cant think of anything
so i guess ill say bubye for now
oh wait wait, i remembered something. the other day i realized one of the reason why i want a baby. well its cuz babies are so innocent, in general so are lil kids. even if they do something bad or wrong its not intentional. they dont have it in them to hurt someone intentionally. so you can give them ur all and love them to death and theyll never hurt u. not like adults. wuts sad is that when ppl grow up they become capable of hurting others intentionally. anyways, thats a bit of sinight into the workings of my mind :D
i should get going now, its almost fajr.
nighty nights ppl

fish sticks dont amuse ppl or meet their expectations

2006-09-03T03:55:00.000+03:00

hey blog people
Today I saw an old friend of mine and we were talking and all. Shes like maha how can u live like this and do nothing bla bla bla. I found what she said kinda offensive. Cuz ya3ni aish da5alik with what I do with my life, wuts ur problem. I don’t think she meant to be rude but it got to me. U see I graduated in june and ive been pretty much doing nothing since then. And shes talking about maha why don’t u work. First of all I applied for jobs but so far nothing interesting has come along. Either way I decided I wanted a break. I want a few more months of nothing. Cuz khalas once I work ill be committed to my work I wont have any long vacations or anything. Either way, my point is, why do I have to explain myself to u. ive always hated that feeling of needing to explain. U know when ppl wanna know why ur doing or not doing something (basically cuz they disapprove, it’s their personal opinion, not like ur doing anything morally wrong). I cant meet everyones expectations and I wouldn’t want to.
Another example of something which annoys me, is like once one of my friends asked me why I don’t get manicures (she said it as if it’s the norm to do manicures, anyone who doesn’t get them is just weird :l). i don’t grow my nails, I don’t put nail polish, but I keep my nails clean and tidy, so wuts the problem?:l is it just cuz I don’t color them and grow them and shape them? The same thing with makeup. Ive got a couple of friends who would ask me why don’t wear makeup and they say I should. For heavens sake, im just not a makeup girl, I don’t go telling them not t o wear make up. 3aaaa3 8<
Ofcourse the things ive mentioned so far may seem small and sillyish but at times it gets really annoying and it just gets me stubborn. There was a point in my life where I had all kinds of goals which had nothing to do with what I really wanted but they were all about proving the world wrong. for example, I wanted to join the army to prove that I as a woman could be strong and get a high rank, add to that my 7ijab. So in the end id be proving that an arab muslim woman could do it. And I still feel like I wanna prove the world wrong sometimes but I figure that it ends up hurting me the most. I don’t want people dictating how I should be or how I shouldn’t be. Don’t think that im some kinda loud dirty rebel. Ya3ni im nothing extreme or disgusting, yet ppl don’t always accept me cuz im not exactly like them. Im no Barbie, and I don’t wanna be one.
Anyways, im hoping (inshallah) that I wont pay too much attention to annoying ppl and I wont waste my time or lose sight of the goals I really wanna achieve while trying to prove the world wrong. Just let me be world.
Bubyes blog people

Eatin ice cream and thinking the world is just so messed up

2006-08-27T00:34:00.000+03:00

Hello ppl
I was originally gonna write about nonsense but then my mood completely changed and I feel like bitching. But ill be nice and talk about stupid stuff first before I start my complaining.
Well today I was thinking ‘how do ppls ears get that dirty?’ u know sometimes u see ppl with clumps in their ears or orange wax coming out. I don’t know how they do it :l I would think showering was enuf to get ur ears clean. Well I don’t know how they manage to get them that dirty but alhamdulilah I take care of my ears :)
Hmm, wut else to talk about. I had a fist fight with my bro today :D I was going up to the laundry room and he was already there. He got me wet, and I got angry and we started punching each other (don’t worry it wasn’t bloody, it was playful) it makes me wonder if other ppl my age fight with their older bros.. either way its fun, it’s a good work out and gives u some fighting experience (u know for self defense, just incase someone tries attackin me)
Ok, that’s enuf for nonsense, lets move on to the bitching :D
Well, I just watched “Hotel Rwanda” (missed the first 20 mins though). I thought it was very touching and I cried a few times (I have a bad habit of crying from movies, hehe) anyways, the movie reminded me of how much I hate the world because of human stupidity and evilness. Its sick when a war breaks out, what reason is good enuf to justify killin hundreds of ppl :l its not only the army or groups/sects of ppl who r evil but even on the micro level. Individual ppl r evil too :l uve got ppl either killing or beating other ppl. U know what sux even more? The damage done min ta7t la ta7t (u know, stuff u wouldn’t notice). ppl go around yi7sidoo other ppl or even doing si7r to them. And u just hear about it all the time. Cant they just say mashallah and wish the best for the person, do they have try to take away wuts good :l freaking jealous assholes. Ya3ni wuts bothering them so much that they have to have good things taken away from others :l im sorry to say this but I think most ppl suck. Not saying im perfect, but alhamdulilah I haven’t done anything I mentioned above and inshallah I never will. I wouldn’t wanna say I hope all of them die, id just like to live on my own lil island. Let everyone screw up the world or other ppl any way they want, just leave me alone.
Anyways, enuf for now
Ill leave u with my singing :D
Bubyes blog ppl
*singing: oh crystal ball, crystal ball, save us all, tell me life is beautiful. Mirror mirror on the wall. oh crystal ball, Hear my song, im fading out, everything I know is wrong...*

95% Muslim, 4.75 % American and 0.25% Saudi

2006-08-17T15:25:00.000+03:00

hello blog ppl,
well, this is more of a serious post. sorry, not much retardedness/fun to write about these days. my life has flipped around and become pretty much uneventful. so the only thing i can write about these days is myself :P a lil bit of self discovery.
anyways, this post is about who i am, what i feel and the different components of me (its all me me me me :D )
so, id like to think a big of part who i am is being a muslim. id also like to think that im on the religiousish side (or atleast relative to ppl my age with my amount of freedom etc etc) but ofcourse there are ppl who think im over religious and then there are those ppl who would say im bound to be eternally damned in hell. but it all depends on whos judging me and their beliefs, its basically all just relative. for my religious beliefs and behavior, ofcourse ill mainly thank Allah, but there are some ppl im thankful for too. i thank my mama for raising me properly. she taught me a bunch of things which made me who i am. she always used to tell me that it doesnt matter what ppl see u do or dont see u do, but God can see u all the time. she also taught me that if i ever sin, i shouldnt give up or think im a bad person, i should pray and ask God for forgiveness and that God is the most merciful. she even told me i can id3ee in english cuz God understands all languages ( hehe, i know its stupid, but its important to me). id also like to thank those good friends of mine. those girls who were mua7ajabat and didnt mess around with guys etc. i think those friends helped keep me in place and not go wrong. growing up i had all kinds of friends and a bunch of them did so many things which i would think are wrong. but there were those few girls who were good, just having them around was a good influence. and sometimes when life gets tough and u look around, if u have those friends, it makes it all seem easier. probably only 2 of the girls im talking about will read this, but i thank those 2 for being around and being who they are and i also thank the other ones (who wont be reading this).

next up, i think im 4.75% american. i wouldve never thought i was that american before. but lately ive noticed that i am. its not like i ud notice me in a crowd of saudis, i dont stand out that much. but if u talk to me and get to know me or just observe me (dont go stalking me though :l) ud realise that i am very different. a few months ago while travelling i met some americans and from just talking to them i realised how much i had in common with them. i felt at home speaking to them.(akh my moms distracting me, so my thoughts arent comming out right :s)

last but not least is the 0.25% saudi part of me. i love my country and i think im quite the patriot but other than that i dont think theres anything else thats saudi about me.

anyways, thats it.... i didnt write this post to make myself look cool or above others and at the same time i didnt write it to feel belittled. i just wrote it as an expression of who i am. just a description. i dont regret any part of who i am, although at times its difficult. but i wouldnt change a thing.

bubyes blog world

carving a name into my heart: fishy speaks up about love

2006-08-03T23:47:00.000+03:00

hello blog ppl,
well today im going to do something i havent done yet. im going to tell u about my non existent love life and my views on love.
to start off let me give u guys my definition of love. well giving a straight up definition is difficult but ill give u some criteria which must be met for me to call it love. firstly, love doesnt come and go easily, basically ur not gonna fall in love every couple of yrs. i believe u only truly fall in love no more than a couple of times during ur lifetime. basically, i cant stand those girls (and some of u guys) who think theyre in love with every bf/gf theyve ever had. i cant stand those teen girls and even girls my age who run around all the time "oh my god, im so in love with him and we re getting married", then sure enough within a few months they break up and the girl whines about how her heart is all broken, but woohoo, wait a minute, within a couple of months she finds someone new to fall in love with, and the cycle begins all over again, only to keep repeating itself.

secondly, if u do fall in love with someone, ull never completely get over them, something significant of them will always remain with you.
third, love takes time to happen, there is no such thing as love at first sight, there can be liking at first sight which later grows into love, but real love never comes that quick.
last but not least, when you love someone u know them well, so ur not inlove when uve just met the person (which i mentioned above). when ur in love u dont have to act infront of eachother, theres no show to put up. u r who u r, and the other person knows that.

well we just covered what i think love is, now ill move on to tell u about my love life. i have had crushes and i have liked guys etc. but i cant honestly say that ive ever loved any of them, i know i liked them, but it wasnt love. i know this because, if it didnt work out between us i got over it. maybe getting over it wasnt quick, but it did happen. one thing ive noticed about myself, is that i dont give my heart away all at once, and i think some ppl may have expected me to. i give it gradually. a little part at time, once i feel safe and comfy enough, i give another little piece. i dont think ive given anyone much. except for maybe one person. i gave him a chunk of my heart and he pretty much bruised and bashed it. i dont think it was intentional, i think it was just outta his stupidity. ofcourse i still like this guy, but i dont think its love, cuz i know eventually (inshallah) i will get over him. i know i should be over him by now, but i dont think i really am, and i kinda hate myself for it. i guess i just havent gotten decent closure, so thats why its taking this long.

another thing about me and love, i think being in love would be great. but im not a smushy mushy person. romance is cute. but some ppl just make love (Which in their case, most of the time is just a crush that wont last) look sick and gross :l u know, every lil while "oh i missed u" and they sit their hanging on eachother and theyre just stuck in a sick way :l u know they sit next to eachother at restaraunts, they get all giggly. im sorry thats not my stuff. like i said romance is great but what they do is not romance. i think its nice when u can be friends around eachother, u dont always have to be mushy. get wut i mean?

anyways, i should get going now. as of now i still havent carved any mans name into my heart. who knows when or if itll happen *sigh*

bubyes
*singing: You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off you
You'd be like Heaven to touch
I wanna hold you so much
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off you*

ive been tagged..ive been tagged...ive been tagged

2006-07-21T22:24:00.000+03:00

woo, the colors i chose look nasty on my background :D

Best:
1. Male friend: I guess it would have to be saad
2. Female friend: bebes and juju
3. Vacation: I love all my vacations. So anywhere ive been is good :D

Worst:
1. Time of day: early morning I guess, it all depends
2. Day of the week: Friday (cuz the weekends over)
3. Color crayon: I really couldn’t care

Last:
1. Person you talked to that goes/went to your school: juju 8<
2. Talked to on the phone: my dad for a couple of mins
3. Text: juju (by the end of this tag ull be sick of hearing juju)
4. Person you instant messaged:juju

Today:
1. What are you doing now: answering the questions and chatting with juju
2. Wearing: jeans and a light pink shirt

Tomorrow:
1. Is: Saturday (but does it matter)
2. Got any plans: im going to sit on the couch and chat until my butt leaves an imprint on the couch
3. Goal: my goal for tomorrow? : get real. I don’t make goals for each and everyday
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: not doing anything fun

Favorite:
1. Number: don’t have one
2. Song: im not really into this whole favorites thing. But ill name a couple of songs I like. Nevermind, A333, I have no favorites K I just like wut I like.
3. Color: blue. The light or bright shades, like aquamarine and turquoise etc

Currently:
1. Missing Someone: I miss ppl. Bebes and juju
2. Mood: crappy :D
3. Wanting: a better mood and peace of mind and knowing wut to do

True/False:
I am a cuddler: well, I don’t have a bf and I don’t cuddle with my friends cuz that would be weird, but I guess I might be a cuddler
I am a morning person: not really.
I am a perfectionist: I guess so, somewhat
I am an only child: nope
I am currently in my pajamas: la2
I am currently pregnant: I wish
I am currently suffering from a broken heart: no, I wouldn’t go that far. Im just angry :D
I am left handed: na2a
I am addicted to Blogging: nope
I am online 24/7: its more like 8/7
I am very shy around the opposite gender: Nope
I can be paranoid at times: sometimes, I get scared I forgot or lost something
I currently have a crush on someone: umm, no decent crushes at the time. But there was berbic *shy face*
I currently regret something that I have done: nope
I enjoy country music: never, 3aaaa3 I enjoy smoothies: yes I
I enjoy talking on the phone: it depends on who im talking to, but I prefer hanging out
I have a hard time paying attention at school/work: if im tired
I have a hidden talent: yes, im perfect and very few ppl know :P
I have a lot to learn: yeah
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: I don’t like pooping in public bathroom. Hehe. Ok im not ashamed of that. so I guess the answer would be no

Anger:
1. Are you currently mad at someone? I was angry at my mom, but I just hugged her 15 min ago, so I guess its good now
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper? Probably me :D alhamdulilah the friends on my mind now, don’t have temper problems
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? Probably
4. Ever had something thrown at you? Probably. (this is a stupid Q, define something thrown do pillows and vegetables count?)
5. When you’re mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream? Depends, but I can do both

Excitement:
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a surprise party for you? It wasn’t really a party
2. Are you easily excited? I guess I am
3. What are you most excited about? Currently nothing
4. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought? Woo, I won a million dollars?
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be? An answer from God

Self-Discovery:
1. Name: maha aka maja
2. Where were you born? Berkeley, California, USA
3. What’s your main goal in life? Make a happy family
4. How do you want to die? This is a sick question
Opinions:
1. Sex before marriage? Nope
2. Gay Marriage? Im sorry but I think gayness is so wrong, so marriage just makes it all worse
3. Lower the Drinking age? Couldn’t care, I don’t drink. I guess they should raise the drinking age. Make it 25 :)
4. Recycling? Its good

Dreams:
1. What was your latest dream? Not worth remembering
2. Have any of your dreams come true? Not sure.
What was the weirdest dream you’ve ever had? Cant remember

Love-Life:
1. Straight, Gay, Bi? Straight.
2. Do you have a bf/gf? Nope
3. Do you have a crush? I already answered it above
How many beds did you lay in yesterday? 1
What color shirt are you wearing? Light pink
Name one thing that you do everyday? Another stupid question
What color are your walls? Creamish
How much cash do you have on you right now? My wallet isn’t near me
I can’t wait till…? Its too personal to tell ppl, nothing bad, but id rather keep it to myself
When was the last time you saw your dad? 2 hours ago
What did you have for dinner last night? Pasta
What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone? I generally don’t borrow clothing, but I wore my moms 3abaya for 3 mins yesterday
What website(s) do you visit the most during the day? Hotmail and CNN
Does anything hurt on your body right now? My head

Have You Ever:
1. Have you ever failed a class? Nope alhamdulilah
2. Have you ever sung in front of a crowd? Yes but not alone
3. Have you ever not taken a shower for 3 days? Never, I think id die
4. Have you ever slept with a night light? A long time ago
5. Have you ever danced in the rain? Maybe, don’t remember
6. Have you ever lied? Yup
7. Have you ever had contacts? nope
8. Have you ever tripped over something stupid? Yup, myself :$

Pick One:
1. Samosa, Pakora, Kebab: not in paki food
2. Bollywood, Lollywood, Hollywood: Hollywood.
3. Love marriage, Arranged marriage: Love marriage.
4. Honeymoon, no moon: Honeymoon.
5. How many kids would u like 1,2, 3+: so far ive got 3+ planned but who knows wutll happen.
6. Kulfi, Ice cream: Ice cream
7. Shah ruk khan, Orlando Bloom: I would say orlando but he belongs to juju. Ive got darth vader :D
8. Meenar-e-Pakistan, Eiffel Tower: paris
9. Lahore, Khi, Islambad: Khi only cuz saads there

hmm, who to tag...... well i tag taqo, bored (karkoomati) and rima if she hasnt been tagged. feel free to tag urself ppl who i havent mentioned

the bum thats traditionally marrying a cake

2006-07-19T14:33:00.000+03:00

last night i forced myself to write a post. once i was done writing it, i thought hmm let me add a pic. then the page froze : and i lost my post. i got pretty annoyed, and i wasnt planning on writing another post but when i got online awhile ago i found a new comment on my last post (which was about 2 weeks old). and because someone actually put the effort to comment on it after so long i figured i should force myself to post something. thank u daydreamer, i dedicate this post to u (if i end up bitching, dont get offended, the overall post is dedicated to you, the content isnt :P)
anyways to get on with the post, i dont think ill write the exact stuff i had written yesterday. so hmmm wut to talk about. i cant think of much to say, nothing that interesting going on with me. well ill just blab about random stuff. im having dinner with my dad tonight, wonder what we re eating, havent told my mom yet, ill just tell her when she gets home from work.
ive been sitting around the house all day long since ive gotten back. i havent really gone out with friends or anything. so im basically a bum. but ive managed to bake some stuff. ya3ni ive made cookies and muffins, and a few days ago i made this chocolate marshmallow cake. ill probably bake something else in a couple of days. i actually like baking.
hmmm, wut else. ok this was mentioned in the post that got erased. my bro wants to get married, so being his only sister, i have to help out looking for a wife. and i really dont like this whole traditional marriage stuff :l ya3ni i saw this one girl recently and she wasnt interesting looking, and i didnt get to know much of her personality within our 2 hour meeting, she barely said anything. so the only thing I could 'evaluate' her on were her looks. so i basically told my bro shes not suitable :l and i dont like this whole 'evaluating' girls thingy. i would hate to know that ppl r checking out every lil bit of me for some male relative of theirs. and these ppl wont get to know my personality within an hour or 2. what would they see, what could they possibly figure out :l i just dont like the process and all.
anyways, i should go now. ill leave u with this pic. it has nothing to do with anything ive said, but what the hell :D this is a pic of the guys in my class back in highschool. they wandered into a supermarket when they were all dressed up in their graduation gowns (it was picture day).

my friends

2006-07-03T16:23:00.000+03:00

well, i figured it was time to write another post. didnt know wut to write about, im not in much of a sharing mood or writing personal stuff etc. so i decided to write about my 3 jam3a friends and how i met them.
the bebe: it was my first day in sharjah, me and my mom had just gotten the card to my dorm room and we were sitting downstairs waiting for a taxi to take us to our hotel. the taxi had no sense of timing, he was so freaking late, but alhamdulilah he was. while waiting i was sitting there all sad next to my mom, then bebe and her mama walk in. bebes looked pretty sad too (not sure if she was crying at the time). anyways our mothers started talking, they stayed in the same hotel as us. we'd go shopping for our rooms together. i never thought we'd be friends. we didnt talk much. anyways bebes became my closest friend :)
juju: well jujus a complicated story. our parents knew eachother before we were born. they knew eachother in the states too. then juju went to saudi. when i got to saudi in 1994 we met again. we became friends around 1997. then juju moved to jida. somewhere around the start of my 2nd year in jam3a, i was in the library and i saw this girl that looked like juju, i was like "amjad" and from then on we started talking. me and juju were just normal friends before, but during jam3a she became a close friend too :) the picture below is proof that me and juju knew eachother as babies.

cookie: cookie was a lil stalker, hehe. well, one day im chatting with my friend online and shes like theres a guy from ur university on my msn list. so shes adds us into a conversation. anyways it turns out cookie was the same major as me and he was in a bunch of my classes. he knew who i was cuz my friend told him my name and all, but she couldnt remember his name, so i had no idea who he was. so id go to class looking around, trying to figure out who he was and i just couldnt :( and the whole time he was enjoying stalkin me. anyways he finally told me its him and i think he gave me a pack of those kitkat bites thingies the first or 2nd time we talked :D anyways, like the other 2, cookie became a close friend. but he graduated a year b4 me and he left :(
the end
maybe next time ill feel like writing something more exciting :l

the manless bum who graduated

2006-06-09T18:22:00.000+03:00

WARNING: THE FOLLOWING POST IS A BUNCH OF COMPLAINING.

Hey blog world.
Well I graduated last week. Some of u may have seen me graduate on tv (thank u juju). Graduating was interesting. But as excited as I thought id be a few months ago. I was feeling neutral and kinda down at times. In the past I just couldn’t wait to graduate. But as I got closer to graduating it didn’t seem as exciting anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I hate studying and I hate jam3a. but it’s the life ill miss. My life wasn’t that great but it kept me satisfied. I got used to living alone, got used to seeing a movie on the weekend. I got used to bebe and juju. They were my family in sharjah. Now im back with my blood family, back in a house I have to share with others, away from my friends.

This post is on the complaining side. Didn’t feel like posting anything but juju convinced me too. She said something like that since my blog is basically my diary, I have the right to complain on it. Im currently a bum :l Im just sitting at home, not quite sure wut to do with my life. Im gonna start looking for a job but that’s not really wut I want. Strange as it is id like to get married. I don’t want some fairy tale marriage. But at the same time I don’t wanna marry someone thatll make me give up so much that ill just lose myself. I’d like an ordinary husband. Id like a normal marriage where everynow and then me (husband) would think “this guy (maha) makes me happy and I love him (her) : )” I don’t want anything special and wow. That’s enough for me. Ill give u an example, maybe itll better explain wut I mean. In sharjah id hang out with bebes and juju. None of them have a Bentley or some beach house. Theyre just normal. We usually do the same routine things. Go to starbux, go to the mall, eat and see a movie. Nothing special, nothing really cool. To an outsider it might seem boring and dull. But im happy with that. I love being with them, even if just getting a donut from the student center at night. It’s a small and stupid act, but being with them makes it fun and worthwhile. If u understand my friendship example then ull understand wut I want in a marriage. So im not asking for much, but the fact that im different and I always will be, means I wont accept your typical/average Saudi or khaliji man.
Anyways enough of marriage thing for now. Lets see if theres anything more perky to talk about…. I guess not. Anyways, see u laters blog people.

PS cookie is my new role model. he watches tv and sits online all day long, and hes got a job. and thats what i wanna be when i grow up 8<>

the belly dancing elevator and my 7maar

2006-05-23T15:20:00.000+03:00

hello blog world, akeed u missed me :$
anyways, im done with finals. and im about to graduate inshallah. its all over and everythings changing. kinda weird. but im not gonna talk about that stuff or ill just complain :D so to avoid complaining ill just talk about other stuff.
i was just looking at the pics on my pc, u know look back at some of my memories from the past few years. well i found a pic of this elevator. it was taken on my birthday this year. anyways, me and bebes were in the main building, i guess going to someones office, maybe it was the lady for extra graduation tickets. anyways we found this elevator we ve never been in before. it was pretty and kash5a, all shiny. so bebe took a pic of it. i guess its the elevator that the chancellor and the sheikh (or anyone else whos special) use.

i also found a video of me and bebes belly dancing (actually it was me trying to belly dance). i must say its not horribly bad, i guess its ok, but i need more practise. need to find something to do with my arms :l hehe, i just dont know what to do with my arms while belly dancing :l juju was the cameraman. thanx juju, great job :D that was also the same day juju taught me some weird dance u do while sitting on the floor. hehe, it was amusing, its like dragging urself on the floor. bebes also danced to the burtaqala song :D stupid song

last pic, is the pic of my 7maar. cookie won this cute lil 7maar in some game. and when i saw it i was like 'oh my god, hes so cute', and then he gave it to me. oh how i love my 7maar. hes adorable. thank u for the 7maar cookie 8<

hmm, wut else to talk about. uploading images is taking too long :l bl3
i guess ive said everything worth saying.
bubye blog world
PS this post is dedicated to bebes cuz she kept asking me about posting etc.

a temporary goodbye

2006-05-05T16:12:00.000+03:00

hello blog people :)
ok i have nothing good to say. but let me just say wutevers on my mind at this moment.
1) my nieghbors r annoying :l some girls got her music on loud and her door is open, ya3ni cant u freakin close ur door :l
2) juju just said i suck cuz she wants the nickelback and santana song, and all i could give her is santa clause and a nickle
3)im not eating dinner with bebes today. shes busy. group work, bla bla
4) im so freakin stressed. the work never finishes and things just go wrong :l but alhamdulilah. things could always be worse
5) i bought a pair of shoes on wed, and they match alhamdulilah. now i need to find a matching bag, a3333......
6) shakira 'hips dont lie' is playing on the radio now
7) i probably wont blog for the next 2 weeks or so. im very busy. wont have the time to blog. and if i manage to find the time i'd probably bore everyone with complaining about how theres too much to do and life sux :D... so ill spare u the pain and just not blog

ok time to say bubyes.

running away to a cave with some forbidden gummy bears to make barbaric love

2006-04-27T23:14:00.000+03:00

sorry, i was gonna start this post by singing wuts on the radio, but i dont know the song thats playing now, so sorry, ull just have to wait :D
well, my weekend was fine, not exciting, but good enough i guess. went to the mall last night, ate and went shopping for shoes, couldnt find :l akh, if anyone knows of any cute off-white/cream formalish shoes or sandals, please tell me, i need a pair.
spent all of today in the dorms, worked on my research papers, that was boring.
anyways now to the more exciting stuff. first off, gummy bears should be made 7araam. everytime i buy a bag of gummy bears i just keep eating them. even when im shab3ana i just keep eating, i start feeling sick and wanting to vommit but i just keep eating and eating, usually finishing the bag in a day or most of the bag. so theyre addictive and harmful, therefore make them 7araam.
second thing, this is a secret, so dont go telling anyone, ok? thank u...
im running off with juju to a cave. we re sick of our work, so we re dropping by the supermarket to get a supply of toilet paper and pads (im assuming always ultra night time, or atleast thats wut im getting, juju can get wut suits her). then we re picking up some more supplies like keymer and amir . amir is mine. keymer is for juju. for those of u not in my jam3a, which is most ppl who read my blog, those r two cute profs. haaaa, amir is perfect *please wait im on the phone with mama* ok back to amir, oh hes just cute mashallah. now dont think hes drop dead gorgeous, no hes just cute, but everything about his looks etc is the stuff i like, so im making him sound perfect.
oh god, im hungry... i want to eat, i just had strawberry yoghurt and 2 tangerines. want to eat more. mmm, amir the cake :D yummy. hehe. ignore me....
woo wooo, theres a song for me to sing, i like this song :D
i know ive been mistaken, but just give me a break and see the changes that ive made. ive got some imperfections but how can u collect them all and throw them in my face. but u always find a way to keep me right here waiting. u always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting......
great song.
oh lord, i should leave before i start complaining about how annoyed i am with life etc etc. im trying not to post anything full of complaints and depression.

6 ajanib,'V' , 2 Enchiladas, and a partridge in a pear tree

2006-04-20T22:58:00.000+03:00

hello blog world let me amuse u guys and tell u a bit about my weekend. actually im just lying to u, im so bored im actually blogging to amuse myself, not u. first off, anyone wanna guess the name of the statue in the pic? dont ask why im asking. i just felt like posting the pic, and well i had to comment about it, i couldnt just put it up for no reason, so i decided to make u guys guess :P

well, like usual ive had a week full of shitloads of work :D wooooo, fun, party :D anyways :l
yesterday, me and the other beans (juju and bebe) went to a mexican place for dinner. i had some cheese and bean dip as a starter, and then enchiladas. then i had 6 americans :D hehe. well, juju knows i cant say no to a dare, im not sure wut brought it up but anyways, but she dared me to go sit with with these 6 american guys. i assume theyre in the army. anyways since i cant say no to a dare. i went and sat down with them for a few mins. they were adorable mashallah, just so friendly, one of them sat there telling me all the 3arabi words he knows, hehe, so cute! anyways im glad juju dared me to be an idiot and sit with strangers :D . bebe video taped it, still havent seen the video though.
next up, we went to the movies, we saw "V for vendetta" it was interesting. i think its worth seeing. then we drove back to university, on our way back we pulled into a burger king drive thru for icecream.
as for today, woke up, supposedly worked on my research, dont ask how much i finished, hehe. juju was supposed to be working too but i doubt she did much either. anyways we got bored so went for 7alaa at the grand hyatt, then we bought bread from the bakery there, mmmm bread, yummy.
i guess thats it. nothing more to say other than im starting to see jujus attraction to ajanib men. theyre fun and cute (personality wise). ya3ni theyve been so sweet. 2 ajnabi guys at the concert were nice to me and now 6 ajanib were nice to me when i was being malgoofa. *sigh* a33333, must put my ovaries on some kinda pause.

PMS and some other stuff

2006-04-11T22:27:00.000+03:00

for those of you actually reading this post, no im not PMSing right now. but i've decided to talk about it.
PMS for me and other women (maybe not all) is annoying. i get very sensitive and intolerant of stuff. easily irritated too. and sad for no reason at all. the depressed part just sux. you sit there feeling all down and u cant really find a reason why ur sad like half the time. then u think hmmmm, maybe its cuz of my period. but even if u try cheering urself up by saying that nothings wrong and ur just sad because of ur hormones, u still dont cheer up. u just sit there sad :l another thing is the bitchy attitude the comes at times. for all u men out there, please put up with the women in ur life if they bitch. they cant control it. our hormones become all evil and inturn make us evil :D so be nice to us women if we re being bitchy or depressed, itll hopefully all be gone within a few days. sometimes when im in a bad mood and im angryish, if my mom notices shed be like "whens ur period maha? is it soon?", she just knows. but when she asks i get even angrier, i think to myself "how dare she ask? how dare she assume that im in a bad mood because of my period? cant i be mad for no reason?" hehe. shes usually right about my period being soon.
now to the other stuff..... akh i hate most rap music. its all crap about how rich the guy is and how hes got naked women everywhere. and these naked women r just dieing to go to his 'candy shop' (that song just annoys the hell outta me). it wouldnt get on my nerves so much if there was only a song or 2, but hell most of them somehow sexually demean women. its sickening. i dont wanna lick no ones lollipop :l akh as u can tell i have a grudge against 50 cent in particular. i also cant stand nelly. anyways, im not into the whole nigga nigga stuff. i think id break down if my son came home covered in 'bling bling' :l
hmm, anything else to talk about..... i guess not.
bubyes for now

Part 2 dan dan dan daaan (suspense music)

2006-03-27T21:25:00.000+03:00

i figured that its time to finish my story now. so here it is.....

"Seniora Maha: part 2"

i reach my late 40's and i was still the same old bitter drunk woman. nothing had changed. my voice had gotten rougher and huskier from all the drinking and smoking, but i continued with my ways. younger men, loveless life and parties.

but one day something interesting happened. someone from my past came to visit me. it was abdullah. when i saw abdullah all these feelings began to rush thru my head. deep down inside i still loved him and i couldnt do anything about it. abdullah had heard of my lifestyle and he told me to change. he said it wasnt right and i shouldnt be wasting my life like that. i got upset and i became furious. how could he sit there telling me that, when he was the reason i became wut i was. in a way i blamed him foreverything wrong that happened to me and all the mistakes i had made. i yelled at him and we got into a huge argument. he grabbed me trying to calm me down and i sat there crying my heart out and i began hitting his chest with my fists (hehe, this is a typical drama scene, u know the sad crying lady shouting let me go and hitting the guy :P )... anyways, abdullah pulls me even closer and then he passionatly kisses me. for a second i thought everything was right and it would all work out. once the kiss was over he looked into my tear filled eyes and once again told me that he couldnt be with me. and he let go of me and walked out of my house and out of my life all over again. i was crushed. i never thought i would be vulnerable to another heart break, but just as he did the first time, abdullah managed to break my heart all over again. i just sat there crying and trying to drink myself to numbness.

next day, my housekeeper came over to my house like she did everyday. when she walked into the house she didnt find me in the living room as i usually was. so she walked around the house looking for me and calling "seniora maha". she walked into my room but didnt find me, but she heard music coming from my bathroom. so she walked to the bathroom door and asked if i was ok. she got no reply. so she opened the door. she found me lieing in the bathtub with candles all around and a empty bottle of wine on the floor. but that wasnt all she found. there was also a puddle of blood on the floor and the bath water was colored with blood. i had slit my wrists and commited suicide. the pain of having abdullah walk out on me all over again and being left with my empty meaningless life was just too much for me to handle. so i killed myself.

the story of my death was in all the italian news papers. everyone was shocked but i dont think anyone truly cared. when news of my death got out, some orphanages and charity groups were hurt and distressed by the news. one of their greatest donators was dead, where would they get the money they needed to keep running. after my death, news had gotten out about how much i had donated to charity, especially to orphanages. people were just shocked. they never thought of me as a kind caring person. they even felt some guilt for misjudging me.

basma and amjad both came to italy to attend my funeral and afterwards attended the reading of my will. i had left all my belongings to charity. i left money for amjads research department and i had left millions to orphanages (it was enough to keep them operating for years).

although i had lived an empty life, i had achieved more than i couldve dreamed of in my death. the memory of seniora maha had become sweet, ppl no longer spoke nasty words about me, theyd remember me in the best possible ways. my friends had never forgotten me. basma would tell her children about me and how we used to be close back in college and all the fun we had together. and amjad had a scholarship at her university named after me.

the end

hope u ppl found my story as amusing as me, bebe and juju did :)

the story of my life

2006-03-20T16:56:00.000+03:00

the otherday while driving back to sharjah my friends and i were talking and well we made up a story about how my futures gonna be. ill write the story on my blog, not sure if ill do it in parts or all at once, ill decide as i go along. alot of people will wonder how the hell this story would be my future, but if u know me well enough and know certain things about me, and uve got urself an imagination, then ull be able to make the connection.

'Seniora Maha'

The story of my future

it all starts within a year or two from now. i fall in love with a guy named abdullah and i couldnt think of anyone else id wanna spend the rest of my life with. but sad enough, me and abdullah cant be together because of his stupidity (in other words hes being an ass). so i get depressed and angry. interestingly, a while after my problem with abdullah i get a proposal. the man is much older than i am, somewhere in his 60's and i am the age of his youngest child. by the way he is a billionair. out of anger and spite i end up accepting his proposal, thinking of it as some sort of revenge for my abdullah problems. but abdulah being himslf only wishes methe best of luck.

after marrying the older man i move with him to italy where he does most of his business. he has houses all over italy and europe in general. sometimes we would come back and visit saudi. but i end up spending most of my time in italy. ofcourse my life isnt too great. i lose all hope in ever falling in love, i think it doesnt even exist. and to add on to everything im also having problems with my step children who cant stand me.

after a few years of marriage, my husband passes away from a heart attack, i end up inheriting billions and as expected my problems with my step children only increase because of my inheritance.

by the time i reach my early 30's i become a very bitter person. i began to drink heavily and smoke. i had a huge wine cellar in my basement and a fully stocked bar inside my house. whether at home or out at some social gathering i'd always have a glass of alcohol in one hand and id usually have a cigarette in the other. i would smoke like crazy and theyd be the slim cigarettes with the lil thingy attached to the end that i stick in my mouth (who knows wut that piece is called).

i was a very social woman, id be at the opening of every art gallery, every elite party, any place a rich socialite would be. many of the parties and art galleries were sponsered by me, but little did ppl know. i would sleep with a different man every few days. i wasnt looking for love. just a night of fun, a mere fling. most of my men were younger than me, somewhere in their twenties. id spend a night with some guy, end up getting drunk and expecting him outta my life by morning. i was a lonely bitter drunk person wasting my life. the italian tabloids were always writing about me and trying to figure out who my lastest man was. as i grew older women would kiss up to me cuz of my status and money but inside they would fear me thinking id get their sons (which i usually did).

meanwhile, amjad is the US carrying out research and as unexpected as it might sound, she befriends one of her neighbors children. he was a curious and smart 10 yrold boy. although amjad doesnt like children, he was different, amjad actually enjoyed his company. me and juju stayed in touch and i would send her department some money whenever they were short on funds. i also gave out a few scholarships to some students at her university.

basma, was leading a completely different life. you could say she was happily married but she kept cheating on her husband. everyone knew about her infidelity but her naive husband never even questioned her loyalty. he would defend her, thinking she would never cheat. basma would sometimes come over and visit me in italy, sometimes shed send her children over for vacation.

to be continued........

well in my next post ill finish this story and we ll see what ends up happening to me.

first countdown over

2006-03-17T14:55:00.000+03:00

well, in my last post i told u i had 3 countdowns for the week. well the countdown to the first event ended yesterday, so now i can tell u wut happened. I WENT TO THE DUBAI DESERT ROCK FEST!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOso let me tell u about my day, the night b4 i was sick (the flu), so i sat there praying in bed that id wake up healthy, but i didnt. woke up thursday morning still sick. anyways me and juju left at 1pm, we had lunch at fudruckers and then reached the concert grounds around 3:30. after standing in line in the sun (please note: dubai is hot) we finally got in. first band to play was mannikind (some local band), next up was the 'Testament', ppl started getting violent from there, pushing, jumping around etc (please note it was still daytime), but it was ok, not too violent.

ofcourse the whole time there was sand all over and ppl were covered in sand, cuz the concert was in the desert and with ppl moving around uve got sand flying all over, so basically all u could breath was sand and cigarette smoke :S, hehe.
anyways after sunset, "Reel Big Fish" played, they werent bad, they werent heavy metal, so i guess thats why i liked them. oh sometime then cookie finally came the concert.

next up was the band me and juju mainly went for 3 DOORS DOWN, wooooooo, woooooo. we got close to the front, about a meter and half away. but it got so freaking violent up there, ppl in the back were shoving forward way too much. i was stuck on some big guys back and i was just flying around, at points i wasnt even on my feet. anyways it got too violent upfront so i moved back to the middle and juju moved somewhere to the back. 3 doors down is a great band, even live, theyre good. during their last 2 songs (here without u and love me when im gone) i was standing next to some big canadian guy (in the dark it looked like hes in his 40's). anyways he smiled at me a few times, id smile back. then he started singing with me :D hehe. he'd lean in towards me and sing. after that we talked a bit. he said something so cute, he was like your pretty, and i was like oh thank u. hes like ur prettier than the other girls here, the ones wearing barely any clothing, and my reply was thats falttering i dont hear stuff like that often (for those of u who dont know me, im mu7ajaba, meaning i cover my hair). hes like you've a got thing about u, again i said thank u. we talked a bit more and then i went looking for juju and cookie. the guy was pretty nice and friendly.
next band was megadeath, well since none of us like heavy metal and they were the last band and we were kinda exhausted from standing up so long and being pushed around etc, we decided to go home. on our way out some security guy stopped us and started talking (friendly talking). he was lebnani, he was telling us to stay longer even if its just 10 mins, we said no we gotta go, and he sat there talking and talking and he tried making me talk 3arabi, looooooool. anyways i thought he was a sweety, i dont think juju liked him.
so i got two boyfriends at the concert, the canadian guy and the security guy, hehehe :P juju got a couple of her own too, but i wont say anything bout those, she can tell u guys if she wants.
got back home and showered, i was covered in sand, even my hair was sandy :l
so that was my thursday :D

pointless post :D

2006-03-13T21:44:00.000+03:00

hello blogging world :D ive missed u... its been a while since i put a post. i decided even if i dont have anything to talk about today ill still post something :D so bare with wutever crap i have to put for today :P
well first off, had a busy past 2 weeks with loads of work. not that the work is done or gone now, but its a bit less and im taking a break. university can be so stressful at times, exams, papers and all the reading required, akh:S
anyways ive got 3 countdowns for the next week or so. 1 countdown is for this thursday. the other 2 countdowns are for sunday. sorry cant tell u wut the countdown is for until its over :P....
inshallah ill have a post about thursday if all goes well, inshallah again. kinda paranoid it wont happen :l hehehe....
wut else? hmmm.... well i just finished picking the pictures i wanna put in the year book. it was harder picking pics than i thought it would be. so many pics to choose from.
dont think i have anything else to say for now. its kinda sad saying that, im the type who always has something to say, even if its pointless.
bubyes for now ppl

Miscellaneous

2006-02-28T14:23:00.000+03:00

akh, very stupid song was just playing on radio, it annoyed me:l now the song "how bizzarre is playing" hehe, 'how was i?' :P wonder if anyone gets wut i just said.
anyways got back from university about an hour ago, its been a long day. this post has no specific topic.
let me tell you about a few things i learned in my psychology class today. first thing that was real interesting is: women have stinkier armpits then men do, something about women secreting fat while sweating and bacteria comes along. sorry if i just ruined the image of women, but i thought it was something we should all know :D hehe...... psycholgy dr also mentioned how when women complain, its for the sake of bitching/venting, but men r stupid and they dont get this, so they sit there looking for solutions for the problem instead of just listening.. so inturn it just leads to misunderstandings. *this time, this place, misused, mistakes, too wrong, too late, who was i to make u wait, just one chance, just one breath.... u know u know u know, i love you, i loved u all along......* hehe sorry about that sudden interuption but the song came on and well i really like it, so i couldnt help but sing along. *sigh* i think its a sweet ass song, akh to find a man that feels that way about you would feel great.... anyways, lets move on before i take my single bitterness out on u guys :P hehe (juju knows wut im talking about, its her explaination to why im angry :D ) wooo, one last nice thing i learned in class, men have warmer hands than women :)

hmmm wut next? well last night i was reading about the attempted bombing of the oil refinery in abqaiq and the two terrorists killed were like 21 and 23 yrs old.... that got me thinking my god, they were young, what made them do this. i was expecting older ppl. but now that i know theyre young and my age, i started to feel sorry for them, they just wasted their lives and was it for a good cause? :S then i started thinking about the other extreme of young ppl, instead of being extremist muslims and wanting to kill anyone they disaprove of, there are the ppl out there that are always partying, drinking, doin drugs, making out etc... ive got a bunch of friends who do all of the above or just some of it. but i dont do it myself cuz well i disaprove of it, i just dont think its right. anyways all this got me wondering wut my kids are gonna be :S well personally id want my kids to be around the range of wut i am now. not completely closed minded and not too open where they forget religion. u know i want them to enjoy life and have fun but at the same time just remember theyre muslims and theres an afterlife which is far more significant than this life.
hmm, wut to talk about next? well tomorrows the weekend. probably going to the mall. waiting for the cinema website to get updated so i can see wut new movies r out, hope theres something good.
anyways i guess thats enough for now.
bubyes :D

batman who??????

2006-02-19T23:12:00.000+03:00

remember that super hero named batman.... well he might be somewhere way in the back of ur mind. but ofcourse we all know the feather girls, grrrr (a moment of silence would do great here) ...... yes the feather girls.... the crime fighting trio of the khaleej. since crime rates in the khaleej arent as high as other parts of the world then that means we must be doing our job right :D hehe. who cares about batman or superman anymore. compared to the feather girls theyre nothing. (akh feather girls is such a stupid name, wish i thought up something better :S hehe)..... the picture below was taken infront of the grandhyatt before we burst in to fight the evil doers.... i think this day we got to the scene in the cookiemobil. grrrr, raaaar *shy face* we strike up fear in all evil doers......

anyways enough of that kind of psychoness for now.... sorry havent posted anything a week but i was away and busy. anyways most interesting happened this weekend... on my way back to sharjah from the bahrain airport, i found a highschool friend in the airport and sub7anallah he was on the same flight as me. he was in saudi for vacation and he was going back to lebanon via sharjah. it was fun seeing him again, he wouldve been the last person i expected to see on that flight. anyways maybe some other time ill write a post on the guys of my highschool class. theyre interesting and they kept me amused and annoyed for 3 whole years :D hehe
what else is there to say? hmmmm..... oh saw the movie "three kings" today, and it was my homework:D.... ive gotta write a paper on the movie, the idea doesnt seem too bad. hopefully the professor wont be too picky when grading it :l
anyways i should be off to bed now. gotta go to university in the morning to do a few things and then see juju (one of the feather girls) for coffee/munching...
nighty nights

PS the feather girls are bebe, juju and me (mumu, i think i have the stupidest name outta all of us, hehe)

a walk down memory lane

2006-02-13T16:46:00.000+03:00

i decided to write a post about some of my memories. so im gonna go thru my head and pick out memories and write them down.

memory number 1: when i was like 9 or something there was some white racist boy in my school who called me a 'saddam lover'. i was thinking to myself what the hell r u talking bout, im saudi and saudis arent supporting saddam, get ur facts straight u freak :l

next memory: me and my brother used to have bunk beds when we were younger. i slept on the top bunk. anyways i sometimes used to reach down and steal my brothers pillow for fun :D. there were also times when i would grab a sheet and jump off the top bunk pretending to be parachuting, my mom didnt like that ofcourse :l so id do it when she wasnt around :D

more memories: in 7th grade me and hana had a crush on a LL cool J. i still think hes got himself a nice body mashallah *drool face* hehe. we also made up stupid names for fun. i was "MM Nasty mama" and Hana was "HH Hot mama", looool.

another memory: around 7th grade again. i used to hang out at my friends house (i was friends with 2 sisters). we'd sit there listening to the aramco radio station on wed night, they used to have like the top 40 songs or something. anyways we would sit there trying to figure out wut some singers were singing. eg: how bizarre (we thought it was "how was i")and we werent sure if a guy was singing "i can never be your woman." we also thought up situations where our parents would just kill us. one of them was our parents walk into our rooms and they find a naked guy snorting cocain off of our stomach :D hehehe. our parents would have obviously gotten some weapon and killed us and the guy.

highschool memory: i used to sit next to a guy named philip in class. he always used to write "i love philip" on my desk and notebooks, hehe, that was cute.

who knows what number memory: me and my friend spent the night in a hotel and we didnt have tooth brushes, so next morning we brushed out teeth with our fingers and a little bit of soap :D blekh it tasted gross. and then i tried talking without opening my mouth much and my brother made fun of me..

anyways enough memories for now. gotta go get my dinner ready

the story of a man who could make rice and the woman who loved him

2006-02-12T18:11:00.000+03:00

well as u can tell this post is about a love story. hehe. and i am the woman in the title.
well today i was making rice to eat with my dinner and like usual it turned out not so great. first time i checked on it, it was undercooked and a little salty, so i added a bit of water. but then came dinner time and the rice wasnt dry yet, but i took it off the stove cuz it was time to go to bebe's room to eat.
anyways i have issues making plain white rice. i know it sounds easy to make but its not :l i rarely ever perfect it. i have issues with everything from undercooking to overcooking to over salting and under salting..... i can cook, i can bake cookies and cakes and yet i cant make good rice :l
im not much of a rice person anyways, i dont eat alot so i dont make it often but still, making rice annoys me :(
so ive made a decision. i wanna marry a guy who can make good rice :D ill accept proposals from any guy who could. nothing matters anymore. not his age, height, weight, looks, financial status or anything as long as he can make rice. if he can make good rice he shall win my heart and ill love him forever and itll be the greatest love story ever. people will tell our story for centuries to come. itll amaze ppl and make them cry. and every woman will want a man who could make rice. men will start to compete against eachother with their rice making abilities.
and the story of me and my rice making man will be called "the man who could make rice and the woman who loved him"
hehehe. this story amuses me :D
hope my story inspires people out their to search for what they really want in their significant others :P

anyone want one of my rice cakes?:D

2006-02-09T22:25:00.000+03:00

if anyone other than bebe or juju gets the title of this post then i consider them to be genius psychics :D hehe
while i finish up my cereal ill tell u bout my weekend. i was trying to smile at random ppl but no one gave me face : hehe. but some ajnabi guy spoke to me today outta nowhere, that made me happy. ppl should do that more often :l anyways saw 2 movies since last night, memoirs of a geisha and casanova. well memoirs of a geisha was good, i liked it. dont really remember the book that much so i cant say whats better, the book or the movie. and the usual me cried in the movie, hehe, i had juju sitting next to me and she made a joke or 2 about my crying. how do i explain why i cry in movies? i really dont know why, but i guess i relate to them or think if it happened to me it would be sad, i tend to cry over family things, like someones mother dies etc.
anyways now to the 2nd movie, casanova is just ok. ya3ni i wouldnt tell anyone to see it unless theyre bored and theres nothing better to do, u know just as a time pass. maybe teenage girls would like it more.
wut else wut else........ did a bit of shopping here and there. in general just had fun with friends. akh, i cant think of much to say.... this sux. u see everything i go thru to try to please my blog readers, too much stress :( hehe.
oh anyone have a suggestion on movies i should watch. one of my profs wants me to watch a movie which has to do with the arabian gulf and write a paper on it. if youve got any suggestions please tell me.
i guess thats all ive got for now
take care world. dont blow up :l hehe

titleless :l

2006-02-07T18:26:00.000+03:00

hello world, this is me and i need to pee. hehe dont ask wut i was just singing, it just sounded right :$, hehehe.
anyways not quite sure wut to talk about today.
well, in my social psychology class ive learned alot of interesting stuff on how we see ourselves and others. i was on a mission to smile at ppl in my university today, but it didnt work, i didnt have any eye contact with anyone. well there were a couple of guys who i couldve smiled at but i thought theyd get the wrong impression. one reason is that in todays psychology class the prof. said that guys tend to take friendliness from women as a sign of interest. and well i dont want half the guys in university thinking im interested in them cuz i smiled at them :l
my whole smiling mission came from one of my complaining sessions at starbux with juju and bebe. i realised ppl at my university dont really smile at strangers, they dont start conversation with ppl just to be friendly (like in an elevator), the only ones who would r ajnabi faculty or staff sometimes.
wooo wooo, i just remembered something. yesterday i went to dr. Toledo's office with juju and we talked, he was helpful. but he also made fun of me. AUS has a book with all senior students resumes and apparently toledo has a copy and he saw my picture in it and hes like maha no one in the book looks as happy as u, no one! anyways me and juju explained to him that i submitted a smiley photo cuz if i didnt then employers would think im angry and they wouldnt employ me (my reactionless face looks angry/sad, or so ive been told)
hmm what else is there to talk about? well my dilemna is still on and i havent figured out what to do:D hehe. i think jujus getting annoyed with me, i wouldnt be surprised if she smacks me next time i talk about it. inshallah it will get solved.
ooh, for those of you who dont know my little fantasy ill tell u. someday ill be in the desert and some guy in a thobe and shmaa'3 comes riding on his horse and hes mitlathim. he rides up to me, he uncovers his face and says "hello maha" in perfect english. then some angry bedou from his tribe come, apparently ive pissed them off (i think id be great at pissing normal saudis off). anyways my man on his horse yells "afa wana abookum, hathi maha bint alshuyookh". and all the angry bedoo apologise and go away.
hehehe, nice fantasy:D
anyways thats enough for now

to all those who disagree with my previous post

2006-02-05T21:43:00.000+03:00

hello again
My previous post expressed my own personal views, and it didnt even express my whole view, it was just partial. anyone and everyone has the right to disagree with my point of view if they want to. like i said its "MY" opinion and im not enforcing it on anyone and im not insulting anyone. im writing this post based on some friends freakin comments, he called me "dense" because of my views and kinda attacked me and my intelligence, which annoyed me alot (note: this friend is usually offensive and insulting). i have the right to my beliefs as everyone else does and if im not hurting anyone, i see no point in insulting or attacking me. maybe our opinions differ cuz u have info i dont have or vice versa. my point is dont just go jumping to conclusions and get all angry over my last post especially if u dont know my whole opinion on this subject.
thank u:)

Boycotting the boycotters angry face

2006-02-05T15:42:00.000+03:00

hello ppl who read my blog :)
today i told juju we should protest against the boycotters. my main reason behind this is: when i went to the mini mart with juju today, jujus like i want an ice cream sandwich and im like ooh i like them too but theyre in the freezer that says "not for sale". juju then asked the man why arent they for sale, the man was like cuz theyre from denmark and something about the ministry not allowing it. well i was pissed (kinda exaggerating to get a better effect, hehe). ive never been a fan of KDD (kuwaiti danish dairy, i think thats wut it stands for), but i like their ice cream sandwiches. and now i cant have any :( either way forget the whole icecream sandwich thingy, im not into the idea of the whole boycott, i dont see any good comming from it.
anyways i wont comment anymore about the whole boycott thingy cuz it seems to be a sensitive topic and i dont want ppl hating me or telling me im going to hell.
bubyes for now. hopefully ill post something more interesting soon:D

snakes, italian food and spice island... a fully loaded girls week out

2006-02-03T18:02:00.000+03:00

i love you, ive loved u all along, i miss you, been far away for far too long...... sorry bout that, the song was on radio and i couldnt help but sing it and think haaa *sigh*, hehe. anyways back to the point. my week has been pretty busy since sunday, been out a whole lot. Juju's sister was visiting so we went out with her. went to global village where me and bebe played with snakes (play isnt a good word, but u get the point). (thats my arm there in the pic:D )

later on that night we had dinner at spice island, good food, i ate lobster, pasta, and some thai stuff. next day we went out for dinner at an italian place in madinat jumeirah, again good food:D i had pasta, and for my main course i had grilled tuna and for dessert some kinda traditional italian xmas cake. at one point we had our cameras out taking pics of our food cuz it looked it so nice, loool. (dont worry our table was kinda secluded, so no one saw us)

the bill was quite nice :l hehe, i think me and friends wanna keep breaking our previous records for most expensive dinner. next comes thursday, me and bebe just went to the mall, we saw the movie "shop girl", didnt expect much from it, but i really like the movie, it was nice. but its one those movies i really like but dont exepct other ppl to feel the same way bout it. (so if u watch the movie and hate it, dont blame me, i said i liked it, not ull like it)
and not to forget my disapointment in men. well wednesday night i saw some stuff which got me disappointed in saudi men and then i remembered what one of my friends told me bout his friends cheating etc etc. i was thinking akh, no one decent. anways enough complaining.......
to end it off ill say a little joke i read off my friends phone last night. two m7ashisheen sitting around, one says to the other "ana bardaan min almukayif" the other one replies "ana a7mad min alriyadh"
i found the joke amusing :D

Decisions decisions decisions

2006-01-30T12:34:00.000+03:00

I'm so exhausted and i dont feel like making decisions on anything. have u ever felt like you've gotta make a decision, but u dont know wut to do, and at the same time u dont wanna ask anyone cuz u already know their responses and what theyll tell you, and they havent been able to convince u. well, ive got a pretty important decision that i need to make and i guess it is a life altering decision. Problem is, i have no idea wut to do, its either a yes or a no. And well ive asked some people for advice and they told me thier view and others tell me its upto me. well i see why each person gave me thier answer, i agree with them, but they havent convinced me. You know im not sure if its worth it. And im just so stressed and i dont know what to do. Pointless asking anyone again or someone new, i just know what theyll tell me, theres nothing new to be said or nothing i find very convincing or motivating. And well some answers just feel pressuring, and i dont wanna do something cuz i feel pressured into it. I wanna do it cuz i really want it but like i said, im just not convinced.
ooooh, this is one of those times where i just wish i could get some answer from God, where He could just tell me whats the right thing to do and that everything will work out fine. im just so freaked out about making the wrong choice and regretting it.
By the way, for all those people who gave me advice, this doesnt mean i dont appreciate it. I really do appreciate the advice you gave me, but maybe my head just doesnt wanna accept it. Akh, stupid head, I think too much into things and that only brings me problems :l
anyways thats part of my emmotional dilemma for these days :)

my perfect man

2006-01-28T21:05:00.000+03:00

great topic!!!! woooo

the other day i was sitting in starbucks on campus with my friends and like usual i was complaining or disliking something. i basically ended up creating my own man. i kept saying what i dont want. so heres part of list:
-no small chins, u know those non existent chins, i dont like those. this does not mean i want someone with jay leno's chin :l
-no huge adams apples. juju stated this one for me.
-must not have a feminine butt. butts are nice, but not when they get too curvy. basically his butt must not be wider than his shoulders.
-dont want a guy who does his eyebrows :l im not into that stuff.

what i want:
- akh, some singers make me melt. darren hayyes and his song 'beautiful' is just gorgeous. then again groups like nikle back and blink 182 are also cute. (please keep in my mind, my list isnt very realistic)
-hes gotta make me laugh, i so need a guy who can make me crack up. even though i do a good job of amusing myself by myself :D
-tall. i like tall men. cookie is my new reference point in hieght. hes above 6'2". ok maybe any taller would be bad. but i like around the 6 foot range give or take 2 inches.
-no white ppl :l considering im white, im not very attracted to white ppl, u know those milky colored ppl. if hes got a tan, thats fine. and i also dont want someone too dark.
-nice hair. soft stuff
-must be patient, cuz i dont think im very patient. so he needs to make up for that part of me.
-he must know how to dress. i dont want a guy who wears 'tring' (saudis out there should know wut i mean). i hate tring :l

ok, thats only part of my list, i can go on and on. as u can see, half the stuff is kinda too picky. dont worry this is only if i had the opportunity to make my own man (which will never happen :l ). other than that id accept flaws, everyone is somehow imperfect. hell, im nowhere near perfect :D

the weekend

2006-01-27T19:36:00.000+03:00

well its friday night and the weekend has come to an end. as usual i spent my weekend at the mall. wednesday night me and my friends went out and ate chinese, then saw the movie "match point". well, the movie is ok. scarlette johanson, annoyed me in the movie. the story itself is interesting, but the movie got boring at times, not really sure why, but it did. the end had a very interesting twist to it. i think the movie couldve been made better, cuz like i said the story is good, but the movie is just ok.
thursday we went to the mall too. we ate at uno's and then saw "jarhead", i liked the movie its interesting. it reminded me of the days i wanted to join the army, i actually got some of that same feeling back again, it was strange, but nice. anyways back to the movie, its good, worth seeing, makes u hate some soldiers and like others. the movie is basically some soldiers account of his experiences in the gulf war. after the movie we went around the mall a bit and sat at costa.
anyways todays friday. i woke up after having a very annoying/tiring nightmare. i think i should make a book of my nightmares, it would give alot of great ideas for movies. anyways, spent my day reading for my history course and here i am now, posting this on my blog. *deleted part*
excuse me im bored and im just talking
bubyes for now
PS i dedicate this to amjad

registering my 7ijab

2006-01-24T19:07:00.001+03:00

dont worry i didnt have to register my 7ijab or anything, hehe. im just mixing up topics ill be talking bout.
first off, well to make talal happy ill explain the problem i had with my courses. i was supposed to be rgistered for a course in which i write a research paper. i had discussed it with my chairman and a professor last november. anyways i ran around trying to track my prof for a month at the end of last semester to fill out the ncessary form. i finally caught up to him and he filled it out. then i handed it to the associates deans office for approval, things went wrong and it never got processed. then at the begining of this semester (saturday) i kept looking for the prof. to fill out the form again and i emailed him a few days b4, he never replied and i finally found him and he said 'sorry, u cant do it', i was so pissed, he couldve told me earlier. anyways i was so worried i wouldnt graduate cuz i need to get my courses in order within the next couple of days. today i finally got somewhere with that prof and the chairman, inshallah inshallah inshallah, i get this course approved by the dean, if it doesnt then im in shit and itll mess up things for me.

next on my list, well today is one of those days ive thought of my 7ijab and how it feels. i dont plan on taking it off and inshallah i never will. but today i was like hmm, i wish i could just walk around one day without it. u know, to show ppl that im normal, i may be mu7ajaba but im just like anyone else. i also wonder if ppl would recognise me if i did. there have been a few times where women didnt recognise me without my 7ijab. i guess id just like ppl to realise im normal, i like guys, i have hair etc etc.... i remember back in highschool my best friend, a guy, kinda got shocked by some stuff bout me (eg: having a crush), he finally realised i was pretty much just a normal girl but with a 7ijab, he could never imagine me with hair or acting like a normal girl. it was weird. anyways now he knows that im pretty much normal.

enough talking about my 7ijab and courses for now.
i shall go eat now:D

my day

2006-01-23T19:23:00.000+03:00

Woke up today and went to jam3aa for a couple of hours. Sat in starbux with juju, then went to the chairman of my department. He kinda solved my problem with one of my courses, tomorrow ill go back and inshallah things will get straightened out. akh, I hate this. i so so so hate this.
anyways, i made a blog this afternoon:D and i know how to use it, wooooo :D

im lost

2006-01-23T16:38:00.000+03:00

hello,
i have a blog and im lost :
not sure what to do or where to go
wish me luck