95% Muslim, 4.75 % American and 0.25% Saudi

hello blog ppl,
well, this is more of a serious post. sorry, not much retardedness/fun to write about these days. my life has flipped around and become pretty much uneventful. so the only thing i can write about these days is myself :P a lil bit of self discovery.
anyways, this post is about who i am, what i feel and the different components of me (its all me me me me :D )
so, id like to think a big of part who i am is being a muslim. id also like to think that im on the religiousish side (or atleast relative to ppl my age with my amount of freedom etc etc) but ofcourse there are ppl who think im over religious and then there are those ppl who would say im bound to be eternally damned in hell. but it all depends on whos judging me and their beliefs, its basically all just relative. for my religious beliefs and behavior, ofcourse ill mainly thank Allah, but there are some ppl im thankful for too. i thank my mama for raising me properly. she taught me a bunch of things which made me who i am. she always used to tell me that it doesnt matter what ppl see u do or dont see u do, but God can see u all the time. she also taught me that if i ever sin, i shouldnt give up or think im a bad person, i should pray and ask God for forgiveness and that God is the most merciful. she even told me i can id3ee in english cuz God understands all languages ( hehe, i know its stupid, but its important to me). id also like to thank those good friends of mine. those girls who were mua7ajabat and didnt mess around with guys etc. i think those friends helped keep me in place and not go wrong. growing up i had all kinds of friends and a bunch of them did so many things which i would think are wrong. but there were those few girls who were good, just having them around was a good influence. and sometimes when life gets tough and u look around, if u have those friends, it makes it all seem easier. probably only 2 of the girls im talking about will read this, but i thank those 2 for being around and being who they are and i also thank the other ones (who wont be reading this).

next up, i think im 4.75% american. i wouldve never thought i was that american before. but lately ive noticed that i am. its not like i ud notice me in a crowd of saudis, i dont stand out that much. but if u talk to me and get to know me or just observe me (dont go stalking me though :l) ud realise that i am very different. a few months ago while travelling i met some americans and from just talking to them i realised how much i had in common with them. i felt at home speaking to them.(akh my moms distracting me, so my thoughts arent comming out right :s)

last but not least is the 0.25% saudi part of me. i love my country and i think im quite the patriot but other than that i dont think theres anything else thats saudi about me.

anyways, thats it.... i didnt write this post to make myself look cool or above others and at the same time i didnt write it to feel belittled. i just wrote it as an expression of who i am. just a description. i dont regret any part of who i am, although at times its difficult. but i wouldnt change a thing.

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